Free Mind of A Free Man

It’s been my very first time post in this beginning of 2012. Some people might write about some positively optimistic things on their blog to start a year, yet I choose to write this kind of maybe a sorrow post just to devote what I’ve been feeling right now. I believe that all people in this world had ever feel like losing something, losing one word could be related to many things . It could be something you can feel with your body or something that you can just only feel in your heart or it can be both in the same time. You may cause part of empty room in your daily life when you lose a thing, day after you start to miss that lost thing. Now, I wanna talk about losing something that might be caused kind of deep sense of loss in your whole daily life, that is losing someone that you love. What do you know about loss? Some people maybe could yelled at my face about this. I don’t know much about losing, I don’t want to act like an expert of this probs. But based on my own experienced ...

I do promise that I want to write about the journey of KTF UI, a group of dance which I’ve been in since sSeptember 2010. First I had never imagine that I can go abroad with mission to spreading Indonesian traditional music and dance, I can’t even do dancing, and I bet I used to be bad dancer ever. This chance come from my close friend Cessa. She’s invited me to join KTF, but I told her, I’m not that good in that kind of motoric activity, but when she offered me a chance to representate Indonesia in Europe through dancing. I have no word beside YES I’M IN ! Cessa introduced me to Milla, she’s the dance couch of KTFUI and with my Nandak in Abnon experienced she’s obviously believe that I can do dancing. Then I had some interview with KTF founder named Anneke and Olla, after they finally made decision that I deserved to join. KTF didn’t have any guy member since the first time its found, this cultural mission made KTF need to recruit some guy. Here we are, after some close reqruitement p...

Here comes my new family with great people inside. I have to admit that being one of finalist Abang None Jakarta is one of my childhood dream, yeah when I was kid I saw in television ( I forgot the year), but I know after watched that show, I had plan in my mind, I have to become one of them. And it becomes true. I had join kind a same competition before Kang None Banten province, I got the second place, that was when I’m still 16 years old sounds too young to win that kind of competition. Yet, being finalist of Abang None is a different thing, because it’s more precious and I could say it’s worth for my future. The Abang None Jakarta stories goes on my age of 19.. First I decided to fill the form, I was quite a shy introvert person, with half afro hair, dark skin, and I just newly graduated from my Senior High School. But mother of God, I passed the test interview and took the 5th place or 4th Runner up. I got better confidence to face people around, with my broadcasting background ...

Today I went to Gelora Bung Karno, Senayan with Cessa, Ayip, and Shalita. We will watch our friend Aming, Olla, Novely, and Bani perform "Bajidor Kahot" dance for Indonesia Youth and Sport Festival. They performed at 13.30, we arrived there at 12.30, so after met them Me, Shalita, and Ayip still have an hour spare time. We decided to walk around the festival, there are many booths there, foods, organizations, we can ask more about many Youth organization, most of them are working on culture, leadership, global relationship, and knowledge. we continue walking then we found another festival, that's like Japanese Culture Festival. There are one booth that attract our attention, Ship For Japan South East Youth Program, one old man come to us and explained about this program, how to register, and what will you do during this program, I amazed with the way this man explained us, he tell us for increase awareness about the scholarship and program to exchange abroad, he said that...

So this is my first time after three and a half months I never visit home, I enjoyed my self in with my daily life in my student flat, sometimes I come home just for taking my stuffs I need, I come to my mother house more often. first I just have no idea about what should i do at Saturday after finished class, I went to mechanic to fix my motorbike, it's done just in 20 mins , I don't wanna spent another Saturday night alone, then I decided to go home to take some stuffs and meet my sisters. come home, my sister was in a nap, and my other sister was hang out with her bf. so I'm alone, it;s bored, then I remember that was on July my ex said that she sent me a package of gift for my birthday, I haven't see the package, so I looked for it, yeah it's already in my bedroom, I opened the wrap and gotcha, I opened my very late birthday gift from my ex girlfriend. she gave me an angry bird pillow, its nice and she wrote me a notes, so sweet, thanks God I can still make a ...

There’s nothing to worry about when start this Friday, just like another day, sun rises, weather is hot like usual and yep everythings just happened like another day in october. I went to my campus, wear my white poloshirt and jeans, I thought that today the sun will shine and hot, so I prefer not to wear any kind of clothes which can made me sweating. But, for God sake I had make wrong guess about today’s forecast, hard rain comes in the middle of the day when I still in the class. That was very first hard rain that I’ve met since I’ve been studied in this new building of my campus, actually this new building construction is not already finished yet. There are several side that must have to be conastructed, such as laboratory, canteen, field, library, gymnasium, and many more (that’s why I always think that this building shouldn’t have to be use, its building must be finished before I could say it’s suitable). There are some question when first time I went to this building for study,...

What is a real man? How to become a real man? And what makes a man different from a woman beside their sex organ? what makes a man different from boy and guy? At the age of 20, I think this is the age when almost men thinking and questioning, are they really have become a real man or they still a guy even a boy? So this is question that round in my mind also. We have grow, and we get many responsibility as well, we will start thinking of future, think that maybe at 6 -8 next years we have to pay bills for our marriage party , start to think how to make money for our future family, how to lead our family, think that we will be a father for children, how do we will teach them become a man, and how to make our wife feels that a man in front of her is a man that she can trust her body even their soul to be protected. To be honest, I didn’t get any lessons for this case from my father, since I’ve been living as a guy from broken home family from the age of 10 and I live with my mom, there’...